~ShArOnA’s JoUrNeY tO wEiGhT LoSS~

I know deep down that it CAN be done. I know deep down that is just take perseverance and hard work. But I still feel inside my mind like I can’t do it. For some reason I just can’t get on track. I just can’t stick to the plans. I think one of the main reasons that I am having such difficulty is because I don’t feel like being patient. I don’t want it to take me months or even a year to lose about 60 pounds. I just want it to disappear. I just want to look in the mirror and see ME. I don’t want to look in the mirror and see all my neighbors….Ms. Double Chin, Miss Pregnancy Belly Look A Like, Mr & Mrs. Rubs a Lot thighs, the Twins Flappy and Saggy Underarms and not to mention Mr & Mrs Fat Fingers and their 8 children among others. I want them all to go away and I don’t want to have to wait. I know that is unrealistic. But it is just how I feel. I am feeling down and depressed and when I feel like this I get lazy and eat. I don’t know how to snap out of it. Even when I have a few good days and stay on track completely I don’t feel like it is good enough when I look at the scale and I am the same or maybe a half pound less. Yes, I know some of you do not agree with getting on the scale so much and relying so much on what the scale tells you. But I do and that is not something I will change. That scale number means a lot to me. Yes, feeling healthy means a lot to me too and means more to me than the scale number but the number on the scale still means a lot and actually my doctor had even recommended weighing daily because it gives you an opportunity to catch yourself slipping up and correct yourself sooner than later. But the number isn’t heading in the right direction for me lately or it does for a few days and then BAM I am right back to where I started. I just can’t get my eating under control. Exercising hasn’t been as good as I have in the past but I am exercising at least 3 or 4 days a week which is pretty good. I just wish things would fall back into place as they had been before I got pregnant with my daughter. Hmmm, but then again it had taken me 3 and a half years to get on track after having my son! Oh gosh…please tell me I won’t doom myself to another 3 and a half years before getting my butt back in gear and getting on track and staying on track. UGH…I just feel like screaming! I feel fat and nasty and depressed and sad and boy oh boy, much much much more. Ok, enough for now. I just had to get that out. I am going to sleep on it and let’s see where tomorrow takes me. Good night all and thanks for listening. I sure hope I didn’t depress you all too much

Ok, so I guess one step at a time I will get back on track. For about a week I was doing AWESOME! Was exercising lots and counting calories and had lost about 2.5 lbs in about 6 days. Just got lazy for some reason with counting my calories. Kept the exercising going…exercising is pretty fun for me. It makes me feel good about myself once I am done. I wish I could feel that way again about counting calories. I used to about a year ago…but I just don’t feel that way yet again. I know I will and it will take some time. I guess I just have to be persistant. So here is to getting my calories back on track.

On a pretty cool note…I did a little shopping yesterday and bought myself a new Leslie Sansone walking DVD…it a 5 MILE DVD! How exciting! I love her walks and they are quite the workout let me tell ya. So now I have 4 of them to interchange throughout the week. I have two 3 miles walks, one 4 mile walk and now one 5 mile walk. I also bought myself this pretty nifty pedometer that not only counts your step for mileage but also counts your calories burned! I like getting things like this because it excites me about losing weight which in return keep me motivated to keep going

Well I hope you all are doing your best and seeing good results. Keep up the great work!

I am feeling more like my old self again I am feeling excited about weight loss, motivated to do it consistently and positive that I can do it! I am feeling much better these last few days!

I have begun counting calories again. I just started 3 days ago and I can already sense the difference in how I feel. It is wonderful.

I still have no clue why it took me so long after having Bianca to get back on the wagon…BUT, at least I have hopped on I guess technically 4 months isn’t that long especially since when I had my first child it took my almost 4 years to hop on the wagon, lol.

So anyway, here it to me and all of you and weight loss success

Hmmm, so where to begin? It took me hitting a low to get back up and decide to fight back again in this weight loss journey. After I had my daughter in December it was soooo hard for me to get back on track for weight loss. Before I had her…I was doing awesome! I was working out 5 days a week or more and counting calories and losing between 2-4 pounds a week!!! After I had her…I was maintaining. Then over the past month I could see the scale start to creep up. Well I don’t want to see that! I want to continue what I started and succeed! So I am going to take small steps and get there as planned. I started last night with exercise! Got myself a 4 mile Super Challenge Walk completed with Leslie Sansone and boy oh boy did it feel awesome! So here I am pledging to myself and any of my buddies who wish to listen my goals for the next month:

1. Fluids…water, water, water-at least 90% of the time! Minimum of 64 oz a day.

2. Exercise…every other day minimum of 30 minutes

3. Healthier food options and count calories.

4. Weight loss goal of 8 lbs by May 28th…my 2nd wedding anniversary <3

So that’s the plan……….

Ok, so to make a very long story short…I have had no internet or home phone for the past 3 weeks or so! There was a mess up with my utility bill through Verizon and they shut my service off instead of my neighbors service…dummies!!! Anyway, it is finally all straightened out and I am back now.

 I must say that I do not do very well without having this website at my fingertips for some reason or another. So while on hiatus…I managed to gain 4lbs! I think I lost 2 of those though…so now I am up still 2 lbs. I am going to get back into the groove of exercising and counting calories again. I seem to have fallen off track and although I have been doing a lot of activities and keeping busy physically…it just isn’t planned exercise which is what I need. I have been eating fairly decent which is why I am pretty much maintaining and going up and down between 192 and 196 but I want to loose, not maintain. So now I have to go back to what works. So wish me luck and good luck to all of you!

Why is that? Why does it always feel like I am forgetting something important that must be done? Probably because every day there are a million things that I have to get done, lol. I always manage to forget at least one important thing a day Sad part is that lately it has been exercise. I am trying my best to remember…honestly…it is just that usually by the time I remember it is either bed time and I am exhausted or it is the next day and the previous day is already over. Lately I have felt like there aren’t enough hours in the day. I hope things calm down soon. Anyway, I am going to try my best to exercise at least 3 days a week because for the past week or two I have only exercised maybe 2 times if not only once each of those weeks. So I am going to shoot for at least 3 days of working out and then try to work my way up from there as more of my time becomes available. It just is difficult right now since I have gone back to work. The baby needs so much attention…man I think I forgot how much, lol! Especially since my son Cameron is going to be 5 in April! Man oh man…time sure does fly. I think I will struggle a little bit to stay on track with my exercise temporarily while the baby is this little and so needy and requiring a lot of my time…but I am still going to strive to do my best. But I know I will be back in high gear once the baby is just a few months older. I just need to learn to take baby steps, lol. I always want to rush rush rush and strive to be perfect and go far beyond my limits sometimes. But I think now it has finally sunk in that I am only one person who needs to just learn to accept the best that I can provide and not be dissapointed. So here is to a good week!

Ok, so I have been a member here now for about a year and a half and I have loved the people that I have met on here and how supportive they are until just recently. When I first joined Buddyslim it was a totally different crowd then it is now. Don’t get me wrong there are still some of my best buddies on here and there are lots of new buddies who are here for the right reasons too. But when I log on to my email and find that I have a new comment on one of my food posts and the person writes that my information is useless with exclamation points just because I had created a BBQ Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast nutrition count for my OWN personal use and it did not say exactly what the size of the chicken was or which bbq sauce I used. Well excuse me but I had created that for me and the people who chose to use it after me obviously were smart enough to look at what they made and see if it matched up pretty accuarately before using it without sending me ignorant messages. So please remember that if you are a person who needs everything printed for you in black and white and you are not willing to do things on your own…then maybe this isn’t the site for you. This site is to HELP AND SUPPORT…NOT BABY YOU AND WALK YOU HAND IN HAND THROUGH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY. Those of you who feel that I may be rude in posting this…sorry for your feelings…because I think it is about time something has been said to people here who are rude and here for the wrong reasons.  Thank you for reading. No hateful comments welcome!!

Well I have been looking at my accomplishments and weight lost for the past two weeks and I see that I am doing good but I know that I can do better than that. I don’t understand why I let myself do the bare minimum the last two weeks and just see what would happen each weigh in. I had two really awesome days over the last two weeks where I really went all out and it felt awesome…BUT, I wonder why I don’t do that more like at least 3 times each week. I wonder if I am lazy or maybe expecting too much from myself especially considering I just had a baby but either way it don’t matter…the rest of this week I am striving for excellence So my next weigh in is this Saturday and I am going to shoot for a 3 lbs weight loss. I plan on acheiving that weight loss by doing at least 3-30 minute stationary bike rides, 3-3 mile advanced walks with Leslie Sansone, 1000 crunches, 200 arm curls, 200 tricep kickbacks, 300 twists and maintaining an average of 1400 calories a day for the week. This should do it…I hope

Well today when I woke up I decided to make a list for today and tomorrow of exercise, calorie, water and cleaning goals that I want to accomplish. So today I met almost every last one of the goals! Today’s goals were to walk 3 miles, bike for 30 minutes, do 50 arm curls & 50 tricep kickbacks with 3 lb weights, do 450 crunches to catch back up in the crunch-a-thon, count my calories and stay around 1400, drink only water all day, straighten up my house, vacuum and fold & put away the clean laundry that I did. So all I have left out of that whole list in order to complete it…is 150 more crunches!  That is it!! Wooo hooo! I am soo very proud of myself. Not to mention that I also still have 200 calories left to eat. So today was a great day…just thought I would share with all my buddies

Well last week I weighed 192.5 lbs and now today I weigh 194.0 lbs. I gained a pound and a half. I expected that though to be honest. I slacked majorly on the exercise this week. I was very busy but not that busy that I should have been able to do a little more. I should have been harder on myself and snapped myself out of lazy mode during my down time but I didn’t. Oh well, I am not going to let it ruin this upcoming week for me. I am shooting for a 4 lb loss and I am sure that I can do it with some extra hard work. Wish me Luck.